Surgery!!! AHHH!

I hate surgery! Can I just tell you that right off? My first semester of nursing school I went to the OR, and I watched a total knee replacement surgery. This was not a good experience at all. First of all, the patient was largely obese and so it took them 7 tries just to get him a spinal epidural! I don't know if any of you have seen the needle used for this procedure, but all I can tell you is that it is longest needle in world history! It is not a pretty site! Then, they had me stand over the patient's head on a stool to look over the drape at what they were doing. The patient is wide awake just looking around. Meanwhile, on the other side of the drape they are burning fat, knocking on bones, etc. Seeing all this made me so light-headed that I past out right there in the OR! They had to wheel me over in a wheelchair to recovery while they kept an eye on me to make sure I was alright! It was pretty embarrasing. So, to get to the point...Today I had to return to the OR, but this time at Primary Children's Hospital. I have been anxious about it the last 2 weeks! When I got there I found out that I could just go with the ENT surgeon. So, I saw a tonsillectomy/adenoidectomy. That wasn't too bad at all. Afterward, I watched them remove this unknown mass off this girl's neck! That wasn't such a pretty site at all. I had to look away a few times during the hour long surgery just to keep my barings. All in all, this last time went much better than the first time. However, I definitely know that I will never work in the OR. I am so glad that I never have to go back!